Thursday, September 28, 2017
I'M UP AND I'M OUT!!!!!!!
I'm showered.
Dressed!
TIME TO HEAD BACK OUT TO THE DAYJOB!!!!!
SEE YOU IN 18+ HOURS PEOPLE!!!!!
Back In Time for 5hrs of sleep AND BACK TO DAYJOB!!!!!
Just back through the door!
Gonna get 5hrs sleep MAX and BACK OUT THE DOOR FOR 1AM EST START TIME AT THE DAYJOB!!!!!!
Wednesday, September 27, 2017
Not Even Gonna Bullshit....
GOTTA ANOTHER 4AM EST START TIME COMING UP!!!!!
SO!?
I'm gonna CALL IT A NIGHT!
^_^
New.
Artwork.
Drawn.
PARTIALLY INKED TOO!
Tuesday, September 26, 2017
Days Like This are Days that I REALLY WISH YOU COULD SEE FOR YOURSELF STACEY....
I LITERALLY just got in and I have seen once again and been REMINDED.
Once.
Again.
That I was WRONG to have made the changes to Myself and My Personality that I did.
I was reminded today that My Decision to surround MYSELF WITH BLACKMEN.
Not Niggas.
Not.
BOYS.
But BLACK.
AMERICAN.
MEN!
Who were READY TO FIGHT BUT UNDERSTOOD WHEN TO FIGHT.
HOW TO FIGHT!
WHERE TO FIGHT.
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY...!?
Why We are Fighting.
It has been talked about and I stressed it today that AS A BLACK AMERICAN MAN.
If You ARE NOT OUT HERE BUILDING AND/OR WORKING WITH OTHER BLACK AMERICAN MEN FOR THE SAKE OF AUTONOMY...!
Then You are literally waiting for the day when "Your services. Are no longer needed."
The things that I SAW.
Today.
I really wish You could have seen Them for Yourself, Stacey.
I really did.
And really Do.
People...?
Love Power.
Love...?
A "Position".
Of Power.
Sometimes with Little to No Regard for what it HONESTLY MEANS.
Nor what impact IT HONESTLY HAS ON OTHERS.
They just HAVE IT.
CRAVE IT.
NEED IT!
Strictly because They are Weak.
An Impotent.
INCOMPETENT.
In some Way.
Shape.
Or Form.
SO!?
They seek Power, a POSITION OF AUTHORITY.
So that they can USE THAT TO SHIELD THEMSELVES FROM.
Themselves.
And Their Own Incompetence.
It's an interesting Thing to Watch.
To a point.
To a point.
To a point.
I enjoy My Post at My Dayjob.
Where someone pointed out that MY CURRENT DAYJOB POST...?
Is SIMILAR TO THE ONE I HAD AT THE WENDY'S....
^_^
Someone pointed out TODAY.
That MYSTERIOUSLY.
I have gone from 1-dayjob-to-the-Next.
Where in BOTH INSTANCES.
I have a large measure of AUTONOMY.
But it is still AUTONOMY.
Under someone else's authority.
My ONLY CONCERN IS DOING MY JOB.
Nothing More.
Nothing Less.
But it is interesting to see people around Me.
Literally signing Their Own Death Warrant.
And thinking They're fine.
I have constantly warned and warned.
And I have done what I need to do on all fronts.
I am working hard so that I can AVOID BEING THERE when The Bill.
Comes.
Due.
I really am trying hard to GET CLEAR.
Before I have to see something that I'd...?
Much rather not see....
RIGHT QUICK!!!!!
As You can see I clearly came in the door yesterday.
Posted ONE POST.
Ate some DINNER!
AND THEN ATE SOME SLEEP!!!!!
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
Today is a normal 9-to-5 FOR NOW!
For now.
TOMORROW AND THURSDAY THE OT REIGN-OF-TERROR CONTINUES!!!!!!!!!
^_^
And yes.
This pleases Me.
Gonna finish Her Up today and then I think when I, oh shit.
HEH!
I gotta.
Replace My Workshoes.
^_^
Yeah, so.
Gonna go find some new work shoes today after work.
So I'm gonna be back late.
Ohhhhhhhh, look at the time.
Lemme go on ahead and FINISH GETTING DRESSED AND THEN GET ON UP OUTTA HERE!
Monday, September 25, 2017
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BEEN UP SINCE 4AM EST AND NOW I'MA EAT SOME DINNER AND PUT UP SOME POST AND CALL IT A NIGHT!!!!!!
And there is MORE.
OT.
To Come.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!
Sunday, September 24, 2017
16-HOURS STRAIGHT OF WORK DONE AND DOWN!!!!! AND MORE!!!!!!!
16 FUCKIN HOURS OF OT!
STRAIGHT THROUGH WITH NO SLEEP WHILE HAVING WOKE UP AT 7:30AM EST SATURDAY MORNING!!!!!!
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND I JUST SECURED SOME MORE OT WHERE TOMORROW MORNING I HAVE TO BE IN BY 5AM EST AND I'LL BE WORKING TILL 5PM EST!!!!!!
Saturday, September 23, 2017
I Ran In to Work FRIDAY AND...!?
So Yesterday, 9/22/17.
Orange Line Subway got to AT&T Station a LITTLE LATE.
Late enough FOR THE SHUTTLEBUS TO LEAVE which meant WALKING.
Now?
We pulled into the station at 8:46am EST.
-_-
And I was like, whelp!?
MISSED THE SHUTTLEBUS, SHIT!
I wasn't trying to be late, SO!?
I ran up the steps and then just STARTED RUNNING INTO THE NAVAL YARD AND ACROSS IT!
Now!?
I'm running past people jogging at FDR Park and inside the Naval Yard.
I got My Backpack on with a LITERAL BOX OF COLD PIZZA AND A GIANT SKETCHPAD INSIDE OF IT!
Normally it takes 30 to 25 minutes to make it RUNNING!
TO WHERE I AM STATIONED AT FROM THE SUBWAY STATION!
I RAN IT ANYWAY!
With the backpack and the shit IN IT including My Sweatjacket, which I keep as a precaution because the weather is fucked up lately.
I have a FIVE MINUTE AFTER GRACE PERIOD SO I FIGURED IF I REALLY HAULED ASS I COULD ESSENTIALLY SHAVE THAT LAST 5-MINUTES OFF THE 25 MINUTE RUN TIME AND REACH POST WITHIN TIME TO CLOCK IN!
I REACHED THE GUARD-SHACK I MAKE IT ON TIME!
WOO-WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!
SO I'M FEELIN FUCKIN GREAT!!!!!!
I OUTRAN PEOPLE WHO WERE HONESTLY IN SHAPE!!!!!!
AND I'M LOVIN THE FACT THAT I COULD PULL IT THE FUCK OFF!
AND THEN YOU KNOW WHAT DAWNED ON ME PEOPLE!?!?!?
Do You know.
What dawned on Me....
Do You Know.
What dawned on Me, Stacey...?
All of My Great Feelings and Excitement.
Went out the window.
Then?
I realized I NEEDED TO SEE.
What OTHER PEOPLE HAD TO SAY.
So?
I collect Myself.
I go in to the Break Room.
James is there and Melvin walks in.
I then LET THEM KNOW WHAT I'D DONE.
And do You Know....
What They BOTH.
Said...?
They did EVENTUALLY congratulate Me on being able to pull off what I'd pulled off, but...?
The first thing they BOTH SAID IS EXACTLY WHAT I'D REALIZED WHEN I REACHED THE GUARD-SHACK....
"You were lucky that You were not shot while You were running to get here. You were running with a bookbag or backpack. Middle-aged Blackman, running faster than the Whites who're jogging and running around on the base and in the park. You know You could have been killed just now, right...."
And They were right.
They were right....
And understand something.
People EXPECT.
Black Americans to have a sane.
And STABLE.
Psyche.
With THIS KIND OF REALITY always around Us.
Tia Mowry's Tweet;
Tariq Nasheed Retweeted
My son just told me I'm scared the police is going to shoot me. He's 6. #pray
The Female-Titan of My Ex-Wife....
Cuz yeah, I got a 16-Hour Shift coming up tonight.
So what I NEED TO DO NOW is head up to the grocery store and pick up some stuff cuz I'm gonna literally WORK STRAIGHT THROUGH and once I leave out TONIGHT!?
I won't be BACK till 3pm EST Sunday.
^_^
Somebody had asked Me, or, SAID TO ME "How was u gone make shit work with Stacey when You were living in an apartment and no longer had ANY INCOME COMING IN!? She has 2-kids how was all that supposed to have worked!?"
And I told Him as the Blackwomen around us SHOOK THEIR HEADS AT HIM, but I told Him "I HAD THE MEANS to start working IMMEDIATELY AFTER I got put on the Job Progress Program for Delaware County in regards to My Former Surrogate Son, Dan. But DAN DID NOT WANT TO HIRE ME BECAUSE HE KNEW WHAT WOULD HAPPEN NEXT. I? AM NOT HIM. I GAVE HIM THE TOOLS AND PLOTTED IT OUT SO THAT HE COULD HAVE OWNED THAT ENTIRE FAMILY-CHAIN HAD HE DID WHAT I TOLD HIM BEFORE CERTAIN EVENTS EVEN HAPPENED! He INTENTIONALLY TANKED the Opportunity OUT OF PETTY SPITE, to try to convince Me and Himself that He isn't WHO HE ACTUALLY IS. Fine. WHATEVER! But I am NOT HIM. I need something and/or want something, I'M GOING AFTER IT!"
Not so much.
So I just explained the fact that "Now? Me working there, I'M THERE TO WORK. And THAT'S IT. Finding A JOB IS NOT MY PROBLEM. It is FINANCING MY OWN BUSINESS-AMBITIONS THAT IS. But going to work where Dan was? NO PROBLEM! Dan simply didn't want Me there and He DID NOT WANT ME TO REGAIN MY FINANCIAL INDEPENDENCE AGAIN."
So then one of the women told Him "How many times has Shawn missed work Here?"
And the guy realized and then said BEFORE THE OTHER WOMEN COULD START TEARING HIM APART "Oh oh oh U RIGHT U RIGHT! Ok-ok, MY BAD! So wait, WHY DIDN'T DAN HIRE YOU!?"
And that was when Chris was like "Cuz the muthafucka knew He let Shawn IN. Yo, He AIN'T BEEN DOIN, WHUT THE FUCK HE'S SUPPOSED TO BE DOIN IN THE FIRST PLACE! Far as Dan. Dan was on SOME OTHER SHIT. He was doin the whole I'ma prove I'm BETTER THAN SHAWN SHIT! This was part of the shit Shawn was CONSTANTLY tellin Stacey about but NOT REALLY TRYING TO SHIT ON DAN BUT SO MUCH. The Reality is Dan was SHADY-AS-SHIT. For Real, His whole thing was I gotta REPAY SHAWN. But He's passin it off as I'M HERE TO SUPPORT SHAWN, two TOTALLY DIFFERENT FUCKIN ANIMALS! Niggas will miss that shit, but Shawn ain't no fuckin Nigga. So of course HE UNDERSTOOD IT! Now, REMEMBER. Above ALLLLLLLLLLLLL THIS SHIT, all this shit We talkin now, REMEMBER! Shawn's REAL MAIN PRIORITY IS HIS SON AND THE BATTLE GOING ON UNSEEN WITH HIS EX-WIFE. This bitch out in the world talkin HER SHIT! For Dan and even Stacey, SEE DAN!? He's MET AND KNOWS Shawn's Ex-Wife, let's be honest THAT NIGGA SCARED OF HER ASS. And FOR GOOD REASON CUZ THAT BITCH IS CRAZY! Stacey? Stacey and you ladies know, ya'll know. Some OTHER BITCH? Come up and gettin with the Man YOU HONESTLY WANNA BE WITH?" and the women started laughin and noddin but shit wasn't fuckin funny as He reminded dude "This bitch then told the Court, told the Police, OH SHAWN BEAT ME THE FUCK UP AND ALL THIS OTHER SHIT!?!? Now she done LOST THE FUCKIN HOUSE and SHIT! All the shit THAT SHAWN SET UP AND CREATED AND ALL OF THAT, that shit IS GONE! All SHE GOT is His Son and He's a muthafuckin HOSTAGE! Now some OTHER BITCH is on the scene, SOME OTHER WOMAN is on the scene after all the bullshit she pulled to isolate His Ass!? Ya'll know how ya'll are when ya'll wanna FORCE SHIT WITH A MAN!"
Lemme make.
One thing crystal.
Fuckin.
Clear.
Abusive women?
Are treated as a joke.
They're treated as if They are Unicorns who simply don't exist.
But Dan knew.
And still knows.
Even He said when ALL OF THIS STARTED "If you force the issue right now...? While Your Son is still a baby...? She'll kill Him. She will kill Him. And Herself. Just to spite You."
This is PART OF THE REASON WHY I do NOT like Your Parents Stacey.
Because Noni BECAME the monster that she IS.
Because HER PARENTS.
FAILED HER TOO.
This bizarre BELIEF.
That Parenting is some EASY THING and that EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE KIDS.
Is a sick joke.
Add to the sick joke the fucked up and shitty-lazy way that females are raised.
And the sick joke then becomes psychotic.
Standing around talking about how Your Gonna do this that and a third to whomever dates Your Daughter.
Instead of DOING THIS THAT AND A THIRD IN RAISING HER TO HANDLE HERSELF.
Angers Me.
Because instead of EMPOWERING HER.
It's about EMPOWERING OURSELVES AS MEN.
And for the record THIS IS ANOTHER REASON WHY I HAVE NOT HONESTLY DONE A FUCKIN THING TO MAKE SHIT RIGHT WITH YOU, Stacey.
You figure it out.
You DEAL WITH whatever DECISIONS YOU DECIDE TO MAKE.
HOWEVER YOU DECIDE TO MAKE THEM.
Because I remember THE FEAR IN YOUR VOICE.
ON YOUR FACE.
When You realized that NONI?
Is NOT YOU.
She had ZERO QUALMS about PHYSICALLY ATTACKING ME.
The same way she ATTACKED OTHER MEN.
When They angered Her and she saw that BASED ON THE SITUATION AND CIRCUMSTANCES...?
She could be physically violent and nobody would question HER MEANS AND METHODS.
And no reader, I'm not fuckin joking or exaggerating.
It is one of the reasons why I NEVER taught Her any kind of martial arts.
ANY.
EVER.
Because I already knew she'd IMMEDIATELY USE IT FOR THE WRONG REASONS.
When We were in domestic court, FINALLY.
All throughout the last years of My Relationship with Stacey.
Even the Whitewoman Judge began to question Her, but as usual she never would simply say "You know what bitch I think SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH YOU." but she would always hint the Fact that BECAUSE OF HER POSITION and YEARS IN COURT.
Noni's behavior...?
Did NOT MAKE SENSE.
She NEVER ONE TIME SAID "Shawn don't visit His Son."
And once again, THE JUDGE HINTED AT THAT SHIT.
She HINTED it.
But would NOT SAY IT STRAIGHT OUT.
And when Noni closed the child support case, everybody had OFF THE RECORD shit to say.
But nothing OF ANY COURT-USE for Me.
But they ALL MADE IT CLEAR.
That whatever HAPPENS TO NONI, from Here on Out...?
Don't come back here bitch.
They knew that something was wrong with Her.
And the Reality is, there is something wrong.
She never sought ANY PSYCHOLOGICAL HELP in dealing with all THE SHIT!
That went on in Her Household.
So LEMME SCHOOL SOME OF YOU with the Fact that FOR ME?
When I attended Lincoln University I WAS ABLE TO SIT DOWN WITH PEOPLE LIKE PROFESSOR FAVOR AND DOCTOR DUNCAN.
And UNPACK ALL THE BULLSHIT THAT'D BEEN DONE TO ME AND GONE ON IN MY LIFE.
And that is because I MADE IT MY PRIORITY TO UNDERSTAND THAT WHAT I'D BEEN THROUGH WAS HORRIBLE.
It wasn't COOL.
It wasn't SOME COMING OF AGE STORY.
It was HORRIBLE.
And I had to MAKE DECISIONS.
THAT NO CHILD SHOULD EVER HAVE TO MAKE.
But a BIG REASON WHY I DID THAT is because SOCIETY PUSHES MALES TO BE ACCOUNTABLE AND TO TAKE CONTROL OVER THEMSELVES AND THEIR ISSUES!
But with Females...?
No.
While Noni and I were married I had NO PROBLEMS going to see a psychologist.
Noni?
Wanted NO PARTS OF IT.
And that's because SHE WANTED ME TO BE THE SOLE EVERYTHING.
And I made it clear THAT IS UNHEALTHY AND UNWISE.
Understand I type this with COMPLETE CLARITY AND A NEED TO TYPE TO YOU THAT I AM NO FUCKIN SAINT.
But I KNOW MY LIMITATIONS.
So when I told Her We now have the means to pay for the things that We NEED.
Psychological-counseling?
She REFUSED.
She wanted NO PARTS OF IT.
I have found that society TEACHES WOMEN TO LIE TO THEMSELVES AND LIE TO OTHERS TILL THE LIES BECOME A PERMANENT PART OF WHO THEY ARE NOW PRETENDING TO BE.
On a 24/7 BASIS.
Good Luck with that.
You'll need it.
When I made it clear that I wasn't going to put up with the foolishness anymore, well..?It landed Me here.
And truth be told, it is WHAT I DESERVE FOR RIDING FOR SO LONG WITH HER.
I got EXACTLY.
WHAT I DESERVE.
I had PLENTY of opportunities to leave, to get out, to move on.
And I DIDN'T.
So now I have to CLEAN UP THE MESS I MADE.
That's the Way it works.
So lemme get back to work....
The 2-Sacrifices For Ideas and Ambitions to Become Reality....
I just posted this on My Facebook Business-Page for Williams Works Ebooks.
It bears repeating and so I am reposting it here;
Just as a sidenote?
And yes I INTENTIONALLY spelled side note, as ONE WORD, sidenote. You will find that I do things like this and I do them ON PURPOSE. Now?
Just as a sidenote.
The previous post that I just did is something that has been SITTING IN MY BRAIN FOR WEEKS.
I've had little to no time to TYPE IT OUT with everything going on with My Dayjob AND dealing with My Slumlord-n-lady who I have since found out have had Me renting a room.
For $600 a month.
With NO LEGAL RIGHT TO HAVE EVER BEEN DOING SO.
-_-
So I've been living and paying for an ILLEGAL ROOM FOR RENT IN AN ILLEGAL APARTMENT-HOUSE.
>_<
Never mind that an emergency situation has come up with the Dayjob where I will be headed out to work at 10pm EST TONIGHT and WILL NOT BE BACK TILL AT LEAST 3PM EST SUNDAY AFTERNOON.
The post I JUST DID, below this one, TOOK 20-MINUTES TO TYPE. And it is information that I have been HOLDING ONTO FOR WEEKS! Anyone who tries to tell You that YOU CAN BUILD ANYTHING WITHOUT BOTH TIME AND MONEY TO INVEST IN IT IS A LIAR AND YOU SHOULD BREAK AWAY FROM THEM IMMEDIATELY.
Thee main reason why I have NO STORIES UP FOR SALE ON MY WEBSITE is because I am ALWAYS PRESSED FOR TIME. The Dayjob is physically demanding and what I am doing IS AN ORIGINAL WORK WITH ORIGINAL CONCEPTS ALONG WITH INNOVATIONS ON WELL-KNOWN CONCEPTS. Which means I need to do what is ESSENTIALLY, STORYBOARDING WORK, thus, MY ARTWORK.
I have images in My Mind of landscapes and how they look but no time TO DRAW THEM OUT. So I have sketches and such BUT NOT ENOUGH TIME TO FINISH THEM. Never mind that the characters within themselves have Non-Typical DESIGNS TO THEM AS WELL AS TYPICAL, again.
Time to FLESH THESE THINGS OUT IS CRITICAL. So I have to USE MY TIME WISELY TO GET THESE THINGS DONE WHILE ALSO MEETING MY REQUIREMENTS FOR ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING ELSE IN MY LIFE. What is My Point in this post, My Point is that YOU NEED TIME TO CREATE ANYTHING WORTH ANYTHING. You NEED MONEY TO FINANCE THE CREATION OF YOUR CREATION.
There are people out here who MAKE MONEY OFF OF LYING TO OTHERS or THEY SAY THINGS TO PEOPLE TO TRICK THEM INTO BELIEVING THAT YOU CAN CREATE SOMETHING OF VALUE AND WORTH WITHOUT TIME AND MONEY.
I am posting THIS to say to YOU.
YOU CANNOT.
YOU MUST DEDICATE YOUR TIME, NO MATTER WHAT.
TO BRINGING YOUR IDEAS TO LIFE!
YOU MUST DEDICATE YOUR MONEY, NO MATTER WHAT.
TO BRINGING YOUR IDEAS TO LIFE!
FAILURE TO DO BOTH OF THESE WILL RESULT IN THE FAILURE OF YOUR IDEA EVER BECOMING A REALITY.
DO NOT LISTEN TO DREAMERS AND SCHEMERS WHO ATTEMPT TO DERAIL AND DECEIVE YOU THAT YOU CAN STUMBLE-BUM YOUR WAY TO BRINGING YOUR VISION OF IDEAS TO THE WORLD.
LET NO ONE STOP YOU!
Not even yourself....
Friday, September 22, 2017
Zo Williams LIVE RIGHT NOW!!!!! - Are Straight Blackmen the White people of Black America?
Zo took this video down for some reason, sorry about that.
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